Sometimes it just ….

“Sometimes it just goes south.” I learned this expression many years ago from, either my father or grandfather, I don’t know which. I really tried to write today, but, like the saying says, it just went south. My mind set SUCKS right now. Work, money, family all pile on to make today suck.

I know, boo hoo, right! Life is life. “All life is suffering, you just choose how mush suffering.” Taoist (sorta) proverb, if I remember it correctly. I most likely didn’t, but it still drives home the point.

Sometimes it just is hard when as a writer, your brain just will not focus, your brain just refuses to stay on one subject, one line of one paragraph, shit gets hard to do. I am grinding through to just write this right now.

Sometimes it just is a grind. This is true in many ways. Grinding through something pushes me to focus on one thing at a time. One At A Time was a motto that Bruce Snyder, Arizona State Head football coach drove into our heads when I played for him in 92′ and 93′. Take it one play at a time, one quarter at a time, one half at a time, one game at a time.

Sometimes it just pays to go one at a time. Hour by hour, day by day, we live our lives and we choose what we do with those lives we live. It’s the hardest and not hardest (I don’t know it that is really bad grammar or not.) point to ever learn in life. We all have dreams, hopes, fears, wants and needs. I dream about being a successful author. I hope to be one some day. I fear that my book will never be read by anyone. I want to matter someday. I need to be happy. (The last one is also hard for me.)

Sometimes it just is not that easy to smile and laugh.

Sometimes it will be a short blog.

Thank you for reading this.

JW Berwyn.